I DON'T NEED YOUR ATTITUDE I'VE GOT MY OWN!!!

2010-11-05T11:04:00.000-07:00

a bad friday.is just not my day.
-rushing to work & got an cut on my left feet/sole.
an unknown object just poke into it.
an hurtful one & it start to bleed.
-a sudden pour. it start to rain big.
reached a bus stop where i have to change bus from.
a bus stop without any shelter or places to hid.STUPID!!!
-the cut start to hurt so was told to go see doctor for an tetanus jab to play safe due to the unknown object which poke me.
doctor! plus injection!= OMY :X but still i when.

was given a cream to apply & panadol for the fever.

thankful that baby came with mac on my lunch time.

he knows that i'm sick of DDR food.

YOU MADE MY DAY!!!

and sorry that i dun meant to make you feel this way.

my stupid act.argh....

an sleepless again.

16.11.2010-2.10am

2010-10-17T10:28:00.000-07:00

actually have someone close

to talk to

to shop with

to high tea with

to go around with

is just so different.

(ireallymissyou,mummy)

2010-10-14T09:48:00.000-07:00

be it anything as long as it for you.
and those effort went into the drain...
everything that i have done. and trying to prove.

you are not me. you wont know how its feels.
if it mean to be alone.i'll accept it.
15-10-2010.12.54am

2010-10-10T06:02:00.000-07:00

Back~

Happy first year anniversary(: baby. 071010.

091010,just attended uncle's wedding in Malaysia.
was so happy that finally he's getting marries.
(how i wish grandma & mummy's still around to see it
they would ever happy i guess)

all photos will be up soon♥

Family? whats a family/a happy family to me.
a father a mother & sibling.
grand parent & relative.

that enjoy every moment tgt.
i love family gathering but not now.not at all.
this all was used to be. the feeling in me have totally change.
i some how dislike it alot now.
listening to all those adult taking about money and money
telling you this and that. you have to do this and that.
and about those past that really make me feel like shit.
it has been years...
for all i found out the true that ~~i'm not his real daughter.~~
and had accepted it.
and 8 year ago you took grandma away that i really can't accept it.
why i'm just at the age of only 12.why?
and in line you took away goddaddy too.why?
and 3year ago you took away mummy. that fact that i can't accept. and why?
all i wish was just a happy family why it in so hard?
seeing other with lovely family ya i'm jealousy and envy.
but this's my life. and why is it so....
i dun need anyone to pity me for all those.
but just from the botton of the heart pls
only you really want me love me & care for me.
if not pls let me go.

dun act like you care but deep inside you had plan for it.

*all i need is someone who'll treat me whole heartedly.

ps:if i can't hold/keep you, i'll set you free.
*ps: yOu know how much iloveyou...

2010-10-02T08:01:00.001-07:00

just a word of how i feel about myself now.
stupid stupid STUPID & maybe SILLY too~

well Good night...
fact is there's still doubt in it up till now...

2/10/2010-sat.

2010-09-30T10:02:00.000-07:00

so much to say got no where to start from.
well tml & sat finally it my off day, and waited so long for a week end off here it come(:

being not feeling well the pasts days.argh
not enough rest and sleep i guess.
so it time for bed.
goodnight(:

2010-09-02T08:10:00.001-07:00

will it still be the same?
~~even if we start all over again.~~

it has been the 4days.
this is what going throughout my mind now.
ppl asking me why?!what happen?! are you sure you gonna end like this?
is this really going to be the end of it? hmmm this time around i have nothing to say.
or maybe dun wish to say anything. actually nothing happen?! just feeling tried after so much. wanna take a short 'break'. ? not that i'm wanting him to change for me. or what so ever. just what ever he has promises or wanted to prove. prove it & do it. show me.
and im a ill scare now. dun know why. scare things won't work out again. scare thing might fails. scare this and that will happen. and scare the day that we have to faces daddy, and when?! someone give me an ans to everything pls.
let's talk things out before we start all over again?! ~~if ~~this is still possible.~~~~

this meet up kills.
this is so unbearable):
i can't hold them for falling):
tell me what's going on?
tell me what to do?
this feeling isn't the same anymore.why?ans me.

2/9/10-11.10pm thursday.

2010-08-31T03:23:00.000-07:00

i couldn't manage to find it anywhere in sg now.
if only i have enough & have grab it the last time i saw them.
now it's gone~
~~sorry...~~

Quote
“ You’re not going to be his first, his last, or even his only. but if he loves you now, then what else matters? you’re not going to be perfect together, but who is? if he can make you laugh, make you think twice, and take chances, then hold on to him, and give him the best of you that you possibly can. sure, he won’t be thinking about you every second, won’t be with you all the time, and you won’t always know what he’s doing, but he’s giving you a part of him that he knows you can break. so don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give and try not to over analyze. smile whenever he makes you happy, and yell when he makes you mad and of course, miss him when he’s gone. lastly, always remember; he loves you ”

from my fav blog:
http://idareyoutoclickthis.tumblr.com/

fever on and off. what's wrong.body not working right again. and even if i didn't take medicine i feel dizzy feel giddy): and now
one more medicine to take if i can remember were i place it.
mens is here at this wrong time time!!!kill me):
morning shift this whole week i doubt i can wake up!!! ahhh no no no!!!
have to drag myself to work again.
heavy heavy heart...
asking myself is this what i really want & wish it to happen?!
but i have not much a choices right now.
let's start all over again. or end it?
or maybe give each other sometime to cool down fisrt ba.
i'm sure you know how hurts i felt...
how i wish i could disappear...
it just came to my mind while i'm walking around suntec then to marina square then to ctiyhall and back again. still remember the very first time we actually meeted up after a yrs or so. it was after my IT fair work. my heart when pop-ing fast faster and even faster when i see you after so long. we both didn't know what to say. just kept silence throughout. it felt like the fisrt date first time seeing each other first time being so close yet dun know what to say. (whereby actually we use to know each other)the first person who make me felt this way.ever since the start( 4yrs ago). if you remember if you ever felt the same way.

hopefully i could sleep early & have a good sleep throughout.
hearing your heartbeat from far dun stop...

31-08-2010,9.02pm

2010-08-30T08:13:00.000-07:00

take all you want take everything from me.

take my life too if you need.

iknowthiswillbehard,butichoosethismyself.

2010-08-30T04:18:00.000-07:00

it came at the wrong time.

when i dun need it anyhow...

when i give my heart out...

when i say i needed a ~~half time break for myself for this relationship.~~

just like when i needed you the most you are no where found.

~~where were you at that time?/what were you going?~~

am i asking for too much?!

let's cool down.

and start thinking.

ytd,reached back he never even ask 'how are you feeling' what did the doctor say'or what wrong?'

but just some nagging going round with those unhappy faces.

it just make me even sick!

argh!!!what is going on?! everything is just not the way it suppose to.

if only mummy''s still aronud.things would be better...

30/08/2010-7.06pm

2010-08-29T04:14:00.000-07:00

officially sick!!! well done~ it suck!!!
fever,flu,cough & sore throat all in.

the first who i text yet the last to reply.
you'll never know hows the feeling is like."IT SUCK!!!"
dun even know what i'm doing at the counter.
the only one who feels damn cold yet everyone complaining hot.
both hand turn cold start shivering and when blank after 45min.
this's when then i told my in charge i think i can't continuum.
yet in house doctor was out.has to wait till 5.
so has to go out alone and visit any company clinic.oh my.
nearer to my place tampiness.
"yet there's no reply still."
this not the first time no reply be it what's the reason.
ytd, rushing off happily heading to meet you yet what.
ya my fault!sorry!for giving you the wrong infor.
but you dun have to/needs to be so f up with it. and sound so piss off while i talk to you nicely and wanna to explain. and then just walk away without a word. this not the first time too.
you can be the one keep saying sorry for this for that and explaining this and that.
why can i.
well now i dun need it anymore.
i need break.
& i seriously need it.
i'm too tried for anything now.
w/o is the same.dun you feel so.

i'm sure yO'll see this...

2010-08-27T11:03:00.000-07:00

it 2.13am i'm still awake type out this for yOu.
i know you will ready this someday.

bb i know at time or most of the time i'm jut not listening to you. or even on what you already have mention before.not that i not listening or dun want to.i'm tying.
i dun mean to show you attitude, replying you that way or not telling you things.
for now little things still affect m from botton to top. not that i dun wanna share with you or say out. at time i just feel that's no point saying it.as it due to me myself.i'm upset at work.but still i have to put up a smile and finish the day.
thinking hard why am i end up selling ticket there. and doing it the every same day.
why i didn't study hard when iam young. well noone to blame but myself.
i'm really evny on those teenager that same age as me, who enjoying life out there. with supporting family,parent around.
well i have just turn 20!why do i have to go through this much to get here?
i really really hate myself for being good for nothing and having nothing...
bb if you know me. know the story of mine.
ps: i love yOu~

wanted to text this to you but is kinda too long! LOL

2010-08-27T09:03:00.000-07:00

got my working Schedule for the coming week and the whole of next month.
): dislike it alot alot!!! no friday sat and sun off for this month and next!): arghhh i'm upset!!!
working life will never be good when it comes to shift work.
and my places might extend the closing time due to the club & pub up there when there are open! to like 3am or 4am? so there might have one more shift coming up! oh my, but while i actually dun mind last shift. since i like night life more? but then ahhh i'm still sian about my working Schedule my off day and shift!!!

i wanna travel so badly to just get out of this place for a while pls):
go on alone i dun mind even i might be scare. but is actually fun i guess.
just a short trip will do to anywhere. since i know i can't get to where i wanna be.

down with sore throat no voice & flu on and off.
my best friend is here again.knocking on me again!!!
ahhh...go away...

2010-08-22T08:57:00.000-07:00

not asking much just a ill more time spend with you will do.

this both day just dun seem right.the way you talk to me the way you look in to my eyes. i dun know what have i done or what's wrong cos it doesn't seem wrong to you. put up a strong front step up on the bus i can't help it just cant control the tears.well i feel stupid): & ppl looking at me. well maybe iam.
looking at my working Schedule it just suck. i dun have much time to spend with you. once a week or two.we dun stay near travelling time killsss.i know!
& ya i know this few day the way i reply your msg suck.knowing you telling me you are out and all asking me to go to bed tml i have work it make me feel so sian. i have to work got no time for you. just wants to see you sometime. can't even text you when i miss you. is just only a week but there's so much different so much impact to me.now i'm asking myself again how long will i stay on. well before i start working over there i told myself. this job i'll be working for at least a year or so nomatter what. to prove that iam really out for a job and not becos i dun wanna study and just work for fun or whatsoever but is to save up and fulfill my own dream.

tell me if you need a halftimebreak...
maybe i need it more.

2010-08-19T10:03:00.000-07:00

dislike my working Schedule - it just not what i tot it will be like
8hrs of work inculding one hrs break has become

A shift- 8.45-6.30 (9hrs 45min & inculding one hours break.)
B shift- 11-8.45 (9hrs 45min & inculding hours break.)
C shift- 1-10.45 (9hrs 45min & inculding one hours break.)

the time now is so not a good time. end work at 8.45 by the time i Q change and walk out it will be like what 9.15/9.30? arghhh... i find it stupid!!!

everyweek 2 days off is what iam looking forward to now. and is the only time to meet hei-bi?!
but if it falls on week days is as same as - no meet. ahhh... ='(
no buddy to go work with & home with):
no phone at work ):
no one is my age to talk to):
no buddy for lunch):
no no no!!!
i know i have to live with it then.

and i have to get a new pair of shoes. my feet my ankle hurts now & blister is here):
nothing seem right
& pls stop it, stay away from me! ): One Sided Headache/Migraine?

from web: www.headache-migraine-release.com/index.html
Migraine:
The pain is mostly felt in the front around your temples or behind the eyes or ears. Thee headaches can start troubling you right from the morning itself.

Besides the headache, nausea and vomiting accompany migraine. In addition to these you tend to be more sensitive towards light and sound.

The causes of migraine
Unfortunately, the exact causes of the ailment are not clearly known. However, experts might tell you that due to a combination of the expansion of blood vessels and release of certain chemicals result in the unbearable pain.

Migraine occurs due to excess presence of the chemicals dopamine and serotonin in the brain.

Besides this, the migraineurs tend to have certain habits that induce migraine. Consumption of certain foods like chocolate, cheese, nuts, alcohol etc. causes headaches to some people.

Missing a meal and stress can be causative factors too. If you are a woman consuming birth control pills, headaches can result at the end of the pill cycle.

If you are a regular smoker, then stop the habit immediately as it might trigger migraine or interfere with its treatment.

from this Migraine Headache Symptoms 10 out of 7 fit is what iam going through!
http://www.headache-migraine-release.com/migraine-headache-symptoms.html

kill me pls!!!

2010-08-17T07:42:00.000-07:00

when was the last time,...?!

we talked on phone.
we watched a movie.
we share things with each other...

2010-08-13T05:18:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to myself(:

there's no egg mee sua again this year):

thanks for all the wishers and surprise steamboat for nydia joell joleen tanya trishia lenoard melvin yaohui and baby.

God's fair but in truth reality life it has never been fair...

feeling weird feeling no right):

that feeling is getting stronger & stronger as day goes by,what's wrong? up there.

): i'm scare i really am):

sometimes i wonder if things will still be the same if that person wasnt me.
guess i'm not a good enought girlfriend either..

~~pls dun take it away from me)': non-take me away now. not now.~~

2010-08-05T08:45:00.000-07:00

i wish i could disappear at that moment...
i really wish to.
i wish i wasn't there, should not have tag-ed along.
you won't know how it feels inside...you won't!
i can't force myself anymore to fake that smile.
not anymore...

): feel so difference right now.
and stupid back start achng again!
and i guess my left brain is dying soon on me.
it hurting me!arghhh...
why dun you just killl me...
it would be better.

2010-08-04T02:47:00.000-07:00

monday it my very last day in KTPH):

time to say good bye again. dislike starting all over again new people new environment. but well life is all about changing here & there to see to know what is best/better places to be in.right? i'm so gonna miss office people kitchen people all those nice/caring/lovable colleagues aunty & uncle...

it been almost going to a year. my dear friend...
sometimes i wonder if things will still be the same if that person wasnt me.

2010-07-27T09:51:00.000-07:00

Mean what you say...

2010-07-26T22:03:00.000-07:00

can i have some of those now!!! ):

you're making me hating this place as much as i hate it when i'm home.

so much that i wish i could dis-sapper right now...

remain silence thing will never work out but sometime we just have to.

I need my happy pills back!!!

2010-07-26T18:42:00.000-07:00

losing appetite.

i dun know what's going through my mind now.

i can't help it.everything is all still up there...

i can't get over it.i can't...

i'm/(you&i is )trying to safe this r/s you should know.

dun make me go through this onces more.DUN!!!

dun make me feel stupid feel like a fool...

hanging on for nothing....

~~trusting in you is another hard thing for me now.~~

~~ihatehowmuchiloveyou...~~~~ihatehowmuchineedyou...~~

*everything has it limit be it anything...

2010-07-26T10:05:00.000-07:00

mummy, where are you?)':
hug me to bed tell me everything will be okie.
plsss...

if only i could sleep forever and never wake up to be with her forever...

2010-07-26T05:49:00.000-07:00

it hurts me 1000000x more then that!!!

~~anything else i could share could give in but not you...~~

2010-07-26T05:07:00.000-07:00

dun hide or lie to me if only you know that i'll never found out then well go ahead...

“Maybe because forever is such a scary place.”— Ellen Hopkins

~~i know you'll read this.~~
and this will be the last time i'll ask you.
:is there anything that you are hiding it from me?!
or thing that i should know but not told.
be it anything...
i know i dun ask.
but if it suppose to be say you should have say it not waiting for me to ask.
before everything become an misunderstanding...
iam not your to hold anymore...?!
if iloveyou is just to make me feel better but nothing else?!
then i dun need it at all.

2010-07-25T09:39:00.000-07:00

i'm like losing everything once again and that including ~~yOu~~...
)': why?!

2010-07-24T08:40:00.000-07:00

what am i down on earth for?
being an ATM?
being use?
or maybe i'm just too nice/soft hearted to say no/reject & ask why.
i'm just nothing.

what's there to hide if there's nothing going on...
i'm really tired already...thing will never work out this way.

2010-07-23T22:40:00.001-07:00

I'M NOT YOUR ATM!!!

2010-07-22T08:51:00.000-07:00

dun ask what's wrong...
tml will be a better day...

missing her kills me...

2010-07-13T21:10:00.000-07:00

let's remain silence,i just dun feel like talking...

just not feeling that well.

oh well be yourself...

where's the life it should be?!

i guess i have make up my mind...

~~this's not the place i should be in.~~

2010-07-11T02:42:00.001-07:00

Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can change your life forever.
Dont make promise when you are in joy, Dont make reply when you are sad, Dont take decisions when you are angry. Think twice. Act wise.

2010-07-07T05:50:00.000-07:00

Happy 9th month anniversary!

bought our Strawberry Sweetheart but had it alone~

goodnite.

2010-07-01T08:55:00.000-07:00

the only hope.(has gone?!)
i can't even talk about myself.

off day tml.
sentosa hope it wun raining.

i dun like being at home alone):
it a ~~fear~~ in me ever since she leave me.
just when i'm alone the blur picture of how she fall trying to ask for help all will some how fully appear.
sorry mummy,iloveyou):

2010-06-30T15:28:00.000-07:00

Quote
“ When all is said and done, you’re a part of me, that’s the way it was meant to be, people are brought together for a reason, everything happens for a reason, I believe the reason you and me were brought together was cause we complete each other, we fill in each others missing spaces, the empty holes, the blind spots, with love. ”

but now i guess i'm ready to accept anything.

be it good or bad.

the feeling of losing you in near...

2010-06-18T20:32:00.000-07:00

how am i suppose to accept it when i know you’re gonna leave me.
it really hard cause it never been easy for me.

"if you're going to care, care for me completely.
if you're going to love me,love me deeply.
if you're going to stay, then stay forever.
if you're going to break my heart,then break it all.
if you decide not to hold me, then just let me fall.
if you want to leave, then do it today."

if this's the best & only solution it have.

2010-06-12T09:31:00.000-07:00

it always been this way~

you always want things to be in your way. Have you ever think of how i feel what i really want
i wish she was still here)':

it never never never been easy along.
time i just wish to end everything up just like this since iam tired of every things.
but there are still people/things that keep me here.i dun wanna disappoint them.

invisible in your eyes...

***if one day you feel like crying call me. i cant promise i will make you laugh, but i can cry with you. if one day you want to runaway, dont be afraid to call me. i promise i wont ask you to stop but i can run with you. if one day you dont want to listen to anyone, call me. i promise to be there for you but also promise to remain quiet. but one day if you call and there is no answer, perhaps i need you...

2010-06-07T07:26:00.000-07:00

): i dislike this pic!!! i look FAT!!! but true is im):

Happy 8th month anniversary baby ♥
=D IloveyOu many many many♥ oh baby we should take more photos pls!!! hahasss

2010-06-06T07:40:00.000-07:00

when i'm at your age i have got nth like you have now.so dun compare.

am i giving in too much or what?!
just because ilthem.
dun want them to have the same feeling like i do when i'm at their age.
trying to give them what ever they ask for.
just because i have promiss to take good care of them.
then what about me.
when time i need someone to talk to or just someone to be with.
who can i go to.just noone.
i dun owe you ppl anything.
i'm tried of it...
just take what ever you want from me!
and leave me alone.

At the end of the day, you either focus on what’s tearing you apart, or what’s holding you together.

2010-05-25T08:24:00.000-07:00

I always envy those daddy's girls ,mummy's girls. those love, care & concern.

wake me UP from all those dream I'm always imagine of!!!
"The future is never the way we imagined it. "

2010-05-22T23:27:00.000-07:00

2010-05-18T05:52:00.000-07:00

I just gonna turn 20th this year but i feel like i am at my 30!LOL
same old routine every day every week! 6days work no joke!
gonna start shift work soon,28 of next month.
i wonder how would it be like.wonder if i will stay long with this job.

Briefing for cabin crew(tiger airway) were smooth.
i got in for the second round interview.but i turned them down.
still thinking about it.well now shall waiting for the
next round of recruitment if i still wants it.which is 6 month later i guess.
shall see then.

2010-05-14T06:59:00.001-07:00

"I want a trip inside your head, spend the day there,
hear the things you haven’t said, see what you see.
I wanna hear you when you call, do you feel anything at all?"

2010-05-09T08:35:00.000-07:00

HAPPY MONTH'S DAY(: iloveyou mummy♥

imissyouuu):

2010-05-06T06:57:00.000-07:00

Graduation day(:

Thanks baby for attending the ceremony with me♥

i'm just not feeling right ):
upset?! & hate myself! for everything!!!
for being so soft hearted,for being so weak,for being so easy affected by others.
for being not able to express how i feel or say it out.kills meee~
baby it you feel me.

i have not much a choice...
work tml,hate it.travel so far~
one word 'bare' with it!!!

2010-05-04T06:53:00.000-07:00

A hug can turn your day around. Someone puts their arms around you, and they give you a squeeze and all your fear comes shooting out of your mouth, and you can breathe again.

2010-05-03T06:29:00.000-07:00

Ask me how's first day of work?
well i got nth much to say about it...
just TIRED!!!
not enough of sleep i guess):

and out of a sudden i miss baby badly):
yOu know i love yOu baby boyyy(:

2010-04-30T20:46:00.000-07:00

so what if i'm sooo excited about it!!! ):
ahhh...
tell meee..........................................

2010-04-30T10:17:00.000-07:00

two more days):

Do you know how i feel?!
No you don't!!!

Just wanna spend my two long day usefully but guess it not gonna be...
Cause plan has never goes well or smoothly...

))): hate it hate it hate it))): just hate it!

it alr get use to it what could i say...

2010-04-26T00:22:00.000-07:00

It's awesome how it feels to have someone who care♥ (:
do you think so?!

my neck & shoulder is still giving me problem):
is still not yet recover after 2days!!! what's wrong):

2010-04-25T22:17:00.000-07:00

one more week to my start of full time job ):

i still dun have the confident in it.
worried,scare): i dun know.
when the date is getting nearer and nearer):
the feeling is just not right.

well i have been working event after event or sales for sure a long time and now it gonna be so different.
seriously i'm still thinking why? end up i still take up this job(F&B assistant) as eveyone is asking me why. just trying it and see how it gose?maybe for the sake of daddy? i got no ideal.

what i like and hope for is so different.and daddy will never understand.

so many things so ill time!!!
have not done most of what i had said.ahhh

argh shall stop whining about it.
life still have to move on even how hard itis how you dislike it.

2010-04-24T21:08:00.000-07:00

2010-04-23T07:46:00.000-07:00

Quote
“ You’re probably right. I’m sure I don’t have any idea what you’re going through. How hard it is to let someone go. How painful it must be to know that as right as you two are for each other, it doesn’t mean you’re right for each other right now. I wouldn’t know a thing about that. About how it makes you want to scream, or hit someone, or cry. ”

from-http://idareyoutoclickthis.tumblr.com/

baby,i'am lossing the best of me...

2010-04-22T08:07:00.000-07:00

Is said i'll be by your side.
you know i'll take your hand.
but whats now???
):

2010-04-22T04:47:00.000-07:00

i had a bad bad dream two day ago. but could not really remember what it's about.
dreamt of ppl falling off from high building screaming for help.and i'm crying when i woke up.
and having this bad feeling that something bad might happen till now): oh well pls tell me it nth,and nth bad will happen):

2010-04-19T05:59:00.000-07:00

it won’t always be who you thought it would...

): first thing when i woke up in the morning i receive a msg gose:
hey girl payment for Uniqlo's exhibiton will be on MID MAY!!! ahhh so longgg...

BUT in then afternoon i receive a email gose:
We have finalised processing of the payroll and are glad to inform you that you may come by our office this Wednesday from 2pm onwards to collect your pay.

yeah!!!at least i have a ill money to spend before work start):
so for the next few days i sholud stay home pack my 'room' pack my unwanted thing out to free my spaces a ill.
hopefully i will=D

it gonna be mother day's soon.
iam missing her so much as each day gose by):
iloveyou,mummy...

2010-04-18T09:26:00.000-07:00

Quote
“ Life changes every minute of every day. You lose friends. You gain friends. You realize your friend wasn’t ever really your friend, and that person you used to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love. You find love. You lose love. You realize all long that you’ve been loved. You laugh. You cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this, you do that. You really wish you hadn’t done that. You then learn from that and are glad that you did. You have your ups. You have your downs. You see good movies. You see bad movies. You wonder if your life is just one big movie. You look at others and wish you were them. You then realize who they are and are glad that you’re you. You love life. You hate life. In the end you just find yourself happy to be living life, no matter what’s thrown at you. ”

from-http://idareyoutoclickthis.tumblr.com/

2010-04-16T08:46:00.000-07:00

i miss shopping like crazyyyy...
i miss buying things like it's for 'freeee'...
take what ever you want.

I NEED TO SHOP!!!!
for alot of thinggg before i starts work):
and when'll be my pay coming in):

i can't make up my mind.

which one should i get???the converse one??? or

the one i saw in left foot?? (Sperry)

2010-04-15T11:04:00.000-07:00

“ Sometimes you’re afraid to become a couple because you are afraid of losing what you already have with that person. But life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don’t be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have, or could have had. No one waits forever. ”

So someone sent me a formspring message;

“the love of my life and i are forced to be separated by my parents. we still love each other. why am i letting my parents decide my fate? because my mom is having psychological problems because of this and my dad is threatening to kill him.”

So to you, just hold on and think things through before acting. maybe you just need to cool down the situation a bit with your family first and with your boyfriend, if he really loves you, he can wait. your relationship can wait. for me, i always put my family on the pedestal. If your parents simply state that they don’t like your partner but give no reason for it, you have to communicate with them and try to understand their point of view and they should try to understand your point of view. Getting mad and holding resentment because of how they feel will only lead to deeper problems.

all from- http://idareyoutoclickthis.tumblr.com/

2010-04-14T08:38:00.000-07:00

well is not up to me to decide ):
then dun ask me or tell me so much.
you are just making us upset):
you know it mean something to us that is not easy to get over with.
it has been 3yr till now.it never been easy for me.to them too.
i know it hard for you too.
but pls just at least keep e house there's so much memories.

2010-04-14T02:36:00.000-07:00

A Rocket to the moon- like we used to.

I can feel her breath as she's sleepin' next to me,
Sharing pillows and cold feet.
She can feel my heart, fell asleep to its beat,
Under blankets and warm sheets.

If only I could be in that bed again...
If only it were me instead of him...

Does he watch your favorite movies?
Does he hold you when you cry?
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts when you've seen it a million times?
Does he sing to all your music while you dance to "Purple Rain?"
Does he do all these things, like I used to?

Fourteen months and seven days ago...
Oh, I know you know,
How we felt about that night.
Just your skin against the window...
Oh, we took it slow,
[ Find more Lyrics on http://mp3lyrics.org/MI9u ]
And we both know...
It should've been me inside that car.
It should've been me instead of him... in the dark.

Does he watch your favorite movies?
Does he hold you when you cry?
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts when you've seen it a million times?
Does he sing to all your music while you dance to "Purple Rain?"
Does he do all these things, like I used to?

I know, love, (I'm a sucker for that feeling.)
Happens all the time, love, (I always end up feelin' cheated.)
You're on my mind, love, (or so that matter when I need it.)
It happens all the time- love, yeah.

Will he love you like I loved you?
Will he tell you everyday?
Will he make you feel like you're invincible with every word he'll say?
Can you promise me if this is right:
Don't throw it all away?
Can you do all these things?
Will you do all these things...
Like we used to?
Oh, like we used to...

changed my blog skin.got nth better to do i guess.
well it alomst 3am and i just get to sleep):
tell me why?!...
"like we used to..."

2010-03-31T07:41:00.000-07:00

They came,varina and a guys.who i dun know them.they talk to me keep my heart warm.telling me no matter what God's is still here. somehow God see & ans me.and send them there.the prayer peace me down. God i know you still love me. thanks.

2010-03-30T11:03:00.000-07:00

Hoping,Running & Chasing after...

Result will be out soon.in a few hours time.
~~to my secert places.~~

2010-03-29T00:24:00.000-07:00

There shall be my secret places from now...

i hate it to be this way):
tell me it'll be alright.
goodnight.

2010-03-28T02:46:00.000-07:00

Let's save up and get a camera(:
Sony???or cannon???
oh well shall start saving first then say ba.LOL

might start working parttime next week alr(:
shall start saving from there.

Bye!

2010-03-26T05:52:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I Just Lay On Bed And Think About yOu & Life.♥

Instead of date me bring me.
bring me for breakfast/lunch/dinner.
bring me to shopping'
bring me for movie
bring far alway
just bring me along where ever yOu go.

2010-03-26T02:59:00.000-07:00

What a lousy day): ahhh!!!
just trying to be myself,what so hard.

sometme it just take forever to just _____ me!
not that i dun understand.just dun like it.
nvm~

planned to go for e career fair thingy and go down to funan to collect pay.
end up was home the whole day doing nth.oh well...
didn't have a good sleep.wake up with a 'heavy head'=headache and dizzy.
it rain for awhile and whether was cold.
didn't take anything for e whole day.
just dun like eating i guess.

sat going to be here.
i have waste a week home.
i make up mind if iam given e hospital jobs i'll just take it.
if not...i really dun know.

wanna go for a nice picnie and let's fly kite,can i?!

2010-03-21T10:49:00.000-07:00

MOVIE MOVIE?!

i wanna watch:
Dear John,guess no more alr ):
Remember Me.
Kidnapper.
The Lovely Bones.
many many movie wanna catch!LOL

well guess this week will just rot at home~?!
send out my resume like ytd,and waiting for jobs reply.
from Khoo Teck Puat Hospital, Yishun.Position F&B assistant.
but then iam still thinking whether to take it if i got in.
as for now i need a part time job!!!

2010-03-20T10:47:00.000-07:00

i just need a little more time.
for everythiing.

will update soon(:
***baby,iloveyOu!(:

2010-02-24T02:28:00.000-08:00

2010-02-24T01:49:00.000-08:00

seem hard,keep me thinking~
e reason behind it.
maybe~

i seriously dun know what i'm going to do after 2week from now.
i'll be GRADUATING!!! yup i happy~
i know meself,i dun want to study anymore,for now.
but what can i do after next???
work?
work as what?
lab tec?
no,i dun want.
then???
I DUN KNOW!!!

stewardess?airforces?lab tec?or maybe just get any job there's for now.
afterwhich,parttime night class???
*save up money and fulfill my dream have a shop/cafe of my own~

2010-02-18T08:21:00.000-08:00

sorry that i'm not good enough...
i'm trying,if u could see.
dun put me with others
dun FORCE me neither!~

i'm just who i'm.
like it,hate it.so be it

2010-02-18T07:20:00.000-08:00

I'm just lazy to update~
lets just upload some photos~

CNY eve(: ^^^
Shuyun 21st bday(:

Day out with Fad(:

NYJ(:

Happy 4th month baby(:

2010-01-22T10:37:00.000-08:00

ipod touch from my dear(: hahas

so cool so cool~

thanks you,iloveyOu(:

2010-01-21T08:19:00.000-08:00

When every little thing means alot~

just someone to be here when i'm alone.
when i feel lonely.
when i got lost.
one who stay up with me all nite when i can't get to sleep.
when i just need someone to sit with.
~~cause i just hate being alone, hate that feeling~~
to just listen to my rubbish.
bear with my nonsenses ,stubbornness, and toopix attitude...
someone who will tell me everything will be alright when it all falls apart.
~~just yOu~~~

still keeping it going~

*e cough is killing me~

2010-01-18T07:25:00.000-08:00

The lovely ppl i spend my school time with~

kite flying day(:

long since i last update,lappy is not working):
then HP spoiled,argh~

oh,will be working at china town.hmm,still not sure what we are doing.

tml going down for e training(: hope every thing goes well~

project is on the way~ hahas....

Friday presentation

no time for movie. [didn't even get to catch one of so many i wanted to watch):]

no time for singing/KTV.

no time no money for shopping):

so many thing so many place i wanted to do wanted to go...ahhh):

CNY is coming~ LOL

alright got nth much to post anyway~

ahhh,dun feel tat well again...

body ache itchy throat): weak weak!!!

thanks God,class start at 12pm tml(:

some it get bored,

doing e same old thing~

Sign Off:180110-11.58pm

2010-01-07T04:57:00.000-08:00

no more work no more work no more work~

not working tis friday sat and sun alr.
which mean i got no money to pay ~~bill~~LOL.oh well whatever~

so bring me out,date me out.dun wanna stay at home lahhh):
date me out with PLAN!!!~

Sign Off:070110-9.08pm

2010-01-06T06:10:00.000-08:00

070110, it's our 3th month deardear~

just because we both are different,so what~
but e same thing we share is e LOVE we have for each other♥ (:

time to time i noe i'm stubborn, i dun speak out.
cause i wanna look/be strong.
cause i nv wan to cry to yOu.
cause i dun wanna u to worry.
cause i'm afraid we'll be apart.
cause i just LOVE yOu.

'That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you~'

Sign Off:070110-5.45pm.

2010-01-06T03:13:00.000-08:00

e feeling is not right again):

now i got no mood to do project alr~

no mood to do anything~

no no no mooooodddddddddddd~

))):

it's going down down down down down~

Sign off:060110-7.20pm

2010-01-05T07:35:00.000-08:00

let's go marina barrage in e nite again~

oh well,will be working this friday sat and sun.
can't find anyone to work with me): nvm~
will be working from 11am till 9pm or later 10pm.looong looong hrs.break gona be alone again): so ppl if you're in town come come find ME!!!hahas,i'll be at taka!!!

Project to be done!!!yet not started!!!=.=

5min more to~

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY BRIAN,cheer up alright!!!you're not alone=D

'Valentine's Day' Trailer

seems nice~

Sign Off:0500110-11.45pm

2010-01-05T06:06:00.000-08:00

Day two in school.
lecturer is teaching and here we are having fun=D

2010-01-04T02:14:00.000-08:00

let's go oversea!!!=D

let's fly to Thailand first~LOL.
-BangKok
-Japan
-Korea
many many more place~ LOL

Didn't sleep well,just for only 3hr~
send my aunt to hospital at 12plus am.
she's still not well,since a week ago.
got gastric flu.
stay there till 3plus am.
pray and hope she'll be alright soon~

well first back to school it FUN!!!hahas.
lesson ended early.
after which headed to PS,fad bought her flower.
and we slacked around.
got nth better to do,went over to Cathay for job interview~ hahas.
oh well we 3 got in.but ruddi didn't wanna work.only parttime[freddie]wanted to.
i'm still thinking~ should i??? e pay it low low low~ ):
maybe i shall just wait for deryx call!!!hmmm
*need a parttime job!!!if not after this mth i'll have to eat grass eat myself loh): ~ LOL.
i got so so so many thing i wanna buy): but not at this time when i'm jobless.no income):

tml lesson start at 12pm till 2pm~ 2hr only lah for every tue=.=
oh,got project to do): ahhhh~

movie tat i have'nt watch yet):
-Sherlock Holmes
-Did You Hear About The Morgans?
-hear me
anyone anyone?!

Say: Buy me wan twister♥ fries now!!!???~

3moredays♥,noewhatdateisit?!

Sign Off:040110-7.43pm

2010-01-03T07:39:00.000-08:00

after tonite,i'm still e same old me.

with smile on e face as always=D

so no worry~

i'll be alright.

-alvin soo

-nydia lim

-Goh ping hui

2010-01-03T07:27:00.000-08:00

with/without me is still the same.right?!
well maybe i just got nth better to do~

-PS
-yishun
-sembawang
-HOME
*i'm slowly liking/get use to go out alone,go shopping alone.

didn't plan to go out.
but oh well i still went out.
went out to 'help' my sis to get her thing.
yet,forget it~
~~freaking minded!!!~~

being e elders is just so not GOOD!!!
sometime is just so hard to find someone to talk to or share your 'rubbish' with.
even those close friends i have.
just too much thing inside.till i got no ideal where should i start.

i wish i got more freedom.
i wish i could do this do that.
but i just can't/
i wish i could say out what's on my mind what ami thinking.
i wiish i could express myself more.
but i just can't do it.
before i start,my tearst will start first.
~~maybe you should reconsider...having me with you,maybe your burden~~
emoreiloveyouemoreithinkishouldletugo,andnottieyouwithme...
i dun noe why,i always have this feeling in me.
evenduoihavebeingwantingitsomuchsolong.

dun force me if i dun wish to.
so be it,i'm stubborn~
i'm what i'm.not them.
everyone have a diff choice,diff thinking so as i.

after all,all i noe is to cry to bed~

Sign Off:030110-11.24pm

2010-01-02T21:43:00.001-08:00

It's 2010 alr,HAPPY NEW YEAR=D

countdown!!!

i enjoy myself,hahahahas(:

Dinner is good,firework it's nice.

ppl i'm with is friendly,funny too.LOL.hahas

thanks for e day=D hahahahs...

ohmy i miss my baby,parttime and e gang so much.LOL

tml school start alr~

excited,happy yet sian.LOL

i dun care what others think or say.

i just wan it to last...

i'heart'yOu.

2009-12-28T06:27:00.000-08:00

watched alvin and the chipmunks ytd!!! theodore is so cute can (: hahas.
3more days to end of attachment!!!(:
5more days back to school):

*got to find parttime job soon~
any jod intro??!!LOL

how far could it go~

Sign Off:28/12/09-10.45pm

2009-12-26T10:30:00.000-08:00

Is not easy~

what's point of saying/asking when u can't approve/accept him.

i guess u alr noe i have a BF.even u didn't ask didn't say anything.
u mood has not been good ever since tat day we went visit mummy.
i have no ideal what's wrong.

guessing and asking aunt to talk to me,
so what if i say yah i have a BF will u approve and accept him.

it's hard for me too,hiding from u is not easy.
we're not like other couples.
i can't even bring him back home.
can't even say tat i'm going out with him.
find all way to just to go out with him.
going out with a unstable feeling worry and scare u might noe.
this's not what i want.
e feeling tat cant put in word~
no other one can feel how i'm feeling right now.

crying to bed once again~
i hate it!!!
say e three magic word and hug me to bed~

2009-12-26T09:05:00.000-08:00

it's empty,feeling tat cant put in words~
e feeling is back again!!!):

Christmas tat dun seem Christmas to me this year...
but still thanks for all those gift i receive(:
e ppl i spend with(:

*I WANNA WATCH Alvin and the chipmunks 2: The Squeakquel like NOW!!!LOL.
alot more movie i wanna watch
-Old Dogs
-The Treasure Hunter
-The Princess And The Frog
-Sherlock Holmes

where to go,what to do later?! bring me out,date me out~

movie tat nv come...

Sign Off: 27/12/09-1.55am

2009-12-22T09:01:00.000-08:00

Tue

-start work!8.30am
-end work!5pm
-out to town with Phoebe(cousin) check her hand phone plan.she's changing her hand phone.
had 'dinner'.
-headed to cityhall to meet 'oldman' & beng.
and shop for Christmas gift.

i got my gift from 'oldman' tat rip curl purple wallet(: and royce's chocolate(:

Wed
-start work same same,8.30am
-end work at 4.30pm.it's early~
-headed to parkway,meet my cousin and get some stuff.
-headed home!!!
and what,was shock by!!!i can't say...LOL
and i got durian=D heehee....

Sign Off:23/12.09-10.15pm

2009-12-22T07:53:00.000-08:00

Is still difference without her around.~~mummy~~

today it's 冬至(Dong Zhi) where we Chinese eat glutinous rice ball tgt at home?!
it's always home made tgt/home cook till tat yr.
been eating it every yr but this yr didn't eat any.
almost forget till i got home.when ppl tells me.how sad):
i miss mummy...
thinking about her,it's just kills me. ~~tears drop/start crying .~~
heartache,it's just hurt so much.i can't help it!

let's stay this way~

iloveyOu,myoldman,

Sign off:23/12/09-1.11am

2009-12-20T08:09:00.000-08:00

It's still remain empty~
how sholud i put it,idunnoe either...
is just e feeling tat,me,myself noe.

Just e three of us,NYJ.
after so long since we three go out tgt.

i should be like on my BED NOW!!!LOL.hahas
later still working): argh....
alright,shall stop alr...continue tml~

Sign off:211209-12.25am

2009-12-17T08:04:00.000-08:00

Boys Like Girls - Two Is Better Than One Lyrics

I remember what you wore on our first day
You came into my life
And i thought hey
You know this could be something
'cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now i'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true, that i can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And i'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'cause when i close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
And finally now, believing

And maybe it's true, that i can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And i'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on our first day
You came into my life
And i thought hey

Maybe it's true, that i can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And i'm thinking

Oooh i can't live without you
'cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And i've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

Two is better than one.

nice song(:

hmmm,my blog got some problem i think~ LOL):
it's friday(: thanks GOD!!!♥
oh,it's 12 plus i shold be sleeping alr...LOL~

imissmyoldman♥ ):

Sign Off:18/12/09-12.25am

2009-12-16T04:57:00.000-08:00

I MISS HOME COOK FOOD):

miss home made/cook soup.
miss those fav dish mummy cook):

oh well,tml working friday working):
and sat sun will be here!!!

This is sweet & nice(: ♥

Sign Off:16/12/2009-10.29pm

2009-12-15T03:10:00.000-08:00

e cramp,e pain it's killing me):
toopix 'back' is always giving me e same old problem~
after and before like always!!!argh~

Dreams Were Ment For Sleeping~

Sign Off:15/12/2009-7.55pm

2009-12-12T06:42:00.000-08:00

Happy,Moody,Happy,Moody,Happy,Moody,Happy,Moody,Happy,Moody?!~

Happy?!
-had Mac for lunch after so damn long.finally finally i had SHAKER FRIES!!!♥
-double Chocolate Dounts♥
and oso fried mars bars♥
yummy!!!~
ever since so long i had all those fried food.LOL.
yeah,i'm still coughing but guess soon will recover~

Moody?!
-Report that to be done):
-so many thing so ill time):
-something just going through my mind?!
it has been there for somethime alr~

End working headed down to town to find Nydia.
acc her to wait for joell to end work.walked around for Christmas present for our gift exchange.
but didn't get any~
he ended work and they headed home.
walked around alone,emo!!!LOL.nah,just dun feel like going back home so early~
window shopping awhile and saw this long purple rip curl wallet.it's NICE!!!
dun noe whether to get it not~ hmmm...scare it's smaill.LOL.

CRAVING FOR: mac breakfast-HOTCAKE WITH sausage!!!♥ (:

going GYM and 'swimming' later with Nydia Lim Wei Ling.
and shold be meeting YingSi in town after that!

oh well,my report is like only half way here,i should be doing it and not here post rubbish~
but guess i'm not going to continue till later i'm home again.LOL.

^^^took this ytd,LOL♥ (: ^^^

^^^water fountain at suntec^^^

went there just now.

How nice can this be,and how sweet can someone be.

to post something out there.

i saw this: from XXX to WWW,wound you be my GF!!!LOL.

ZZZ to YYY,everlasting love.baby~

it may not be true tat will last forever

but it just so nice & sweet to see someone post something for you to let everyone know & see.

hmmm~

This's for WINSON!!!~ hahas.^^^

the only one who’s ever known.

Who I am,

who I’m not, who I want to be~

Sgin Off:13122009-1.57am.

2009-12-10T06:09:00.000-08:00

I got e urge to get an Ipod touch!!!=D
should i should i???~ hmmm....

Tml it's FRIDAY~
no work no work,but half day back to school.then shopping with TANYA,Christmas's otw!!! hohoho~
and will meeting OLDMAN♥ in e evening!!!=D movie movie~
ahhh): assignment-report to be done by tue): and project to rush by end of attachment which is 3week time~ 'faint' SIAN~

till here~

I'heart'yOu♥(:

Sgin Off:10:55pm-10122009

2009-12-07T06:58:00.000-08:00

the feeling,it's all mixed up):

it's just like an unclose tap,keep flowing down from my eye.
coughing,sore throat,running nose,flu is still here): med dun work,what's e use of taking it.

Newmood on sat,sentosa ytd.
my back is now burning hot!!!RED!!!LOL

when u can't find anyone to be with, being alone
walking around is not an bad ideal,running/walking at nite is nice too.

it's our 2nd month! ~~(sowhat,ithinkitaspecialday.)~~
i have try,still trying hard now.
try all way to fit in your life.
to understand you and myself.
it's seem like i have fails.and is just e 2ndmth.
is always e litter litter thing from those past...
tell me what can i do or to do?~

it's takes two hand to clap.
Can't be only one who's trying and giving.

Sign Off:071209-10.56m

2009-12-02T20:54:00.000-08:00

If Icould, then I would.I'll go wherever yOu will go~

Rotting at home is boring):

oh well,just got another a letter from school.

saying tat i haven pay my school fee and by tml i got to pay!!!

damn sian ah,attachment still have to pay what toopix school fee.LOL

damn,i sleep so much alr but then i'm still sleepy sleepy sleepy!!!

and aching aching aching~ damnnn!!! my back is giving problem again!!!

tot of going to e see chinese doctor again,but imagine of e pain. can 'faint' can 'cry' ah.

hmmmmmm..............

oh thanks God tat tml it's Friday alr.one day of work and sat will be here!!!

(i should have gotten 3days of MC!!!hahas)

oh oh oh!!!new moon is out today!!!LOL.

and and and i wanna watch 'Couples Retreat'!!!think should be nice(:

which is out today too!!!

and Alvin And The Chipmunks 2: The Squeakuel,is only out on 24Dec!!!

hmmm....

shall stop here le,go do some packing up!!!

and see wanna go out not.LOL.

BYE BYE!!!

I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be you're not that far?!

Sign Off:3nov2009-2.35pm.

2009-12-02T04:15:00.000-08:00

2 days of MC!!!

Flu,throat infection and bad cough!!!):
PTBF(freddie) too,we both got e same virus.hahas
take care ah!!!=D

went to e doctor in e morning and got 2days of MC!!!
then headed home took med and sleep till 6 plus 7.had fish soup mee and took med.
feel so weak,sleep till whole body aching ah!!!but still sleepy): ~

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Plain White T's - 1,2,3,4

1,2 - 1 2 3 4
give me more lovin then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)
give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.i love you
(i love you)
you make it easy, its easy as 1234
theres only one thing two do three words four you i love you
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
thats what ill do i love you
(i love you)
i love you i love you.
one two three four i love you.
(iloveyou)
i love you
(i love yOu)♥

Sign Off:2Dec2009-8.45pm.

2009-11-29T05:45:00.000-08:00

i'm back.

i'm tried,mood swing...

tml start work alr,and it's my last day in lab): going over to QC on tue.

oh well,shall go unpack my bag and pack my thing on.

Sign Off:29nov2009-10.20pm

2009-11-25T04:42:00.000-08:00

I maybe just like any other girls next door who you know,
but i'm that someone who LOVE yOu deep deep.

in less then 24 hr i'm go off to GENTING!!!
but but but i haven pack my bag yet!!!
now is alr 9plus i got to go over to my ahma place like 10plus!!!
as 6plus am got to take cab to meet my aunt.OH MY!!!'faint' hahas!!!

sure go pack bag now!!!hahas.bye till i'm back from genting(:

Can't wait to see my OLDMAN when i'm back.hee

LOVE yOu.my dear(: