Sing me a Lullaby put me to sleep

it 2.13am i'm still awake type out this for yOu.
i know you will ready this someday.

bb i know at time or most of the time i'm jut not listening to you. or even on what you already have mention before.not that i not listening or dun want to.i'm tying.
i dun mean to show you attitude, replying you that way or not telling you things.
for now little things still affect m from botton to top. not that i dun wanna share with you or say out. at time i just feel that's no point saying it.as it due to me myself.i'm upset at work.but still i have to put up a smile and finish the day.
thinking hard why am i end up selling ticket there. and doing it the every same day.
why i didn't study hard when iam young. well noone to blame but myself.
i'm really evny on those teenager that same age as me, who enjoying life out there. with supporting family,parent around.
well i have just turn 20!why do i have to go through this much to get here?
i really really hate myself for being good for nothing and having nothing...
bb if you know me. know the story of mine.
ps: i love yOu~

wanted to text this to you but is kinda too long! LOL